Fitting In - What A Fall Home Tour Taught Me
As the end of August was approaching this year, the web was becoming inundated with pumpkins. Beautifully decorated mantles, pristine porches and the perfectly placed tablescapes filled my Instagram and blog feed. I will be honest, not so long ago, I would have been racing to put out my fall decor at the first site of a baby boo pumpkin but not this year.
There was something that shifted inside of me last year while preparing for a fall home blog tour. I had agreed to participate in fall home tour with a group of talented ladies that had been blogging for some time. I asked myself several times "why am I participating in this home tour with these seasoned bloggers?" "What have I gotten myself into?" Needless to say, I felt pressure to come up with a beautiful fall inspired home.
I collected my fall decor from the attic and ran from store to store purchasing more. We also visited the farmer’s market where I spent way too much on green pumpkins and gourds. When I finally had all of my decor gathered and started piecing it together, I felt like it was not good enough, not pretty enough or not Pinterest worthy enough. I began to become ungrateful and dissatisfied with what I had. I kept thinking how was my home going to look compared to these other blogger’s home. How many likes on social media will this get, how many pins will this generate and how many will comment on my blog were questions that I kept asking myself. After all, isn’t this what measures our worth these days.
I cannot tell you how stressed, upset and overwhelmed I became with this mindset. Most of all, I felt so inadequate by comparing myself to others. Also by knowing and seeing their success, this seemed only to highlight my failure. Let me tell you it was not a pretty pumpkin scene at my house that day.
Frustrated, I began setting up my camera and placing all of fall inspired decor around the house when conviction set in. God began to impress upon my ungrateful heart “This is not you!” HE was right. I felt like a fake. Our dining room table is not decorated with elaborate tablescapes and fancy dinnerware in our daily lives. I don’t have cute fall vignettes on every furniture surface of our home. I don’t have pumpkins and gourds filling every corner. I like our decor simple and our home uncluttered. Right there in that moment, God revealed to me that my behavior and even my decor was not who I am. The truth was that I was making our home into something that it was not just so I could fit in and I was so ungrateful in the process.
God did not create me just to fit in. He made me to be me, unique in my own way. HE has given me gifts, talents and a voice that is specifically for me. Gifts that only "I" can use to serve and bring honor to HIM.
"God has given each of you a gift from his great variety of spiritual gifts. Use them well to serve one another. Do you have the gift of speaking? Then speak as though God himself were speaking through you. Do you have the gift of helping others? Do it with all the strength and energy that God supplies. Then everything you do will bring glory to God through Jesus Christ."
1 Peter 4:10-11
Dear friend, you have gifts that are specific for you to use to bring glory and honor to HIM.
It is so easy to feel inadequate or that we don’t measure up when we are surrounded by perfection and beautifully styled photos every day. It is easy to let ungratefulness fill our heart. We have a choice to make as to whether we want to fit in or whether we want to be set apart...to use our own gifts and our own voice.
Don’t let yourself be deceived by what you see but be encouraged by what you know... who you are and who lives within you because you are fearfully and wonderfully made.
And as far as my home tour from last year, well within this post are pictures from last year’s tour. I can’t tell you how many likes or comments I received, if any at all. All that matters is that these photos truly represents our home and and is a reflection of who I am...simple, casual, and straightforward just the way God created me to be.