All I Need To Know
Not long ago as I was doing my morning devotion, my heart was burdened and overwhelmed. I have struggled for sometime on finding out what God’s purpose and plan is for my life. It is a question that I have prayed about and asked God to show me many times. Yet, it still remained unclear.
The scriptures that I was reading that morning were from the book of Mark describing the events leading up to Jesus’ crucifixion. Jesus stated that his soul was overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death and he fell with his face to the ground and prayed in the Garden of Gethsemane.
“Father, everything is possible for you. Take this cup from me. Yet not what I will, but what you will.” Mark 14:36
I wrote down my thoughts in my notebook about these scriptures followed by these words.
“God’s response to our prayers may look nothing like what we have prayed. However, the answer to our prayers will be according to HIS will and not of our own. God promises us that He WILL work ALL things out for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. “
As I knelt down beside of my chair to pray, I asked God to show me what my calling is and what is HIS purpose for my life. I told him that I needed to know what this looked like for me. I told Him that for others it is so easy for them to know what their calling is yet for me, I am still unsure. I cried out asking him to send me confirmation because I needed to know what He is calling me to do because after all I am a “need to know girl”.
After my prayer ended, I took a seat at my desk. I grabbed my phone and began scrolling through Instagram when I came across a devotion that someone shared. As I read through the devotion, the words begin to resonate in my heart. The devotion said that the bible is full of ordinary men and women doing extraordinary things with just a little courage and the willingness to obey. I thought to myself, “Hmm, this is good stuff.” As I continued to read it was the little prayer at the bottom of the devotion that was the first confirmation from God in regards to my prayer.
The prayer read like this:
“I don’t have to know everything, Lord. I just need to know and trust you. I offer my talents and my life to you to be used as you see fit.” - Devotions from The Front Porch
His answer was contrary to what I had just prayed. I had asked God to show me what my calling was and telling Him that I needed to know what his plans were for me. God’s response to me was that I don’t need to know everything that I just need to trust Him and offer Him what I have...an obedient and willing heart. Isn’t it ironic that the very thing that I prayed for is the opposite of what I received. Yet, it was the answer that I needed
But that wasn’t the end of God answering my prayer that morning. I often listen to sermons while I work. I mean who doesn’t need a little Jesus while they are working. Can I get an AMEN! The sermon that I was listening to echoed the same prayer that I had read at the end of that devotion. The amazing part of that sermon was that the Pastor used the same examples of ordinary people in the bible who had done extraordinary things that was listed in the devotion that was shared on Instagram.
God had my attention. The answer to my prayer from two different sources. It was in that moment that I realized that it is not important that I need to know the ins and outs or even the how of accomplishing God’s purpose for my life. What is most important is that I know through WHO these things will be accomplished. It is not by my will but HIS that these things will be done.
God just wants us to plant the seeds and He will take care of the rest. When we are faithful in planting the seeds, God will be faithful in sending the rain.
Are you willing to be obedient and plant seeds dear friends?
As the pastor concluded his message, he referenced Romans 8:28. The same scripture that I had written down in my journal right before I had prayed.
“God works all things out for who love him and who are CALLED according to His purpose.” - Romans 8:28
God is so amazing!
That morning I received the answer to my prayer yet it was the very opposite of what I prayed. I wanted to know what God’s plan for my life looked like and His response to me was that I don’t need to know everything. I just need to know HIS word and trust HIM. It is so easy when we go to pray to be focused on asking God how are your going to do this. I am learning that knowing the HOW is not as important as knowing the one WHO is able to accomplish anything.
God, everything is possible with you.
All God wants from me is to to be obedient and to offer my life to Him so that HE can use it as he sees fit, according to his plan and his purpose. And that my friends is all I really need to know.